Main stream porn stars blogs

Well, it’s like this…
I read the blogs of other ladies on the net. I’ve been doing that since I got on the net. Just curious about what’s going on in their lives like many of you are curious about me. Shit I think that we all have similar things going on in our lives. And it’s really a wee-bit sad that we don’t support each other as much as we should.

This one main stream porn star seems to blog about every thing in her life but doesn’t get so much into the detail of the on camera fucking. I guess when people come to your site only because you look like a barbie doll you can skip the juicy details or any reference to them being in the members section.
But I like her blog and the fact that she’s so open about things in her life. And then there was the blog of a popular black bbw escort which has disappeared. I mean gone along with her site(s). I’m wondering what happened. There is any number of things that could have happened.

I mean emotional stress is a mutha. If you mess around and get the wrong person in your sheets and in your head it can wipe you out of this biz and I’m learning it’s best to deal with the pro’s. I don’t think many dudes can “really” handle being with a chick off the net. I mean they say they want you, they fantasize about you, whack off to your pics but can’t handle how small you make them feel.

You might think that they would love to be with you after all that whacking off and they might think so also but the truth is their insecurities eat away at them and they flee. All the voices of doubt whispering to them. They have to walk around every day wondering if you will dump they ass tomorrow and get someone new. It takes a strong man to deal with that. Let’s not forget the fact that if you are an escort or porn star you are branded a slut. LOL Even if you’ve only fucked two guys over the last four years. !!!

O trust me I understand. I understand completely. It’s so much easier to get you one of them quiet, plain, boring chicks that are too afraid to smile at an attractive guy or start up a conversation with her eyes !! HA, ha, that shit rocks. I understand some guys are just not cut out to handle having a highly sought after chick as his “woman”. But sweets I’ll tell you this. If you get that chance you better take it make the best of it, enjoy the ride, enjoy the perks and make it do what it do.

The truth is most porn stars are not sluts. Why..? cause sluts fuck for free and they don’t have web sites. They are not thinking about building up a fan base, making content or selling videos. They creep off do what they do and you will never know. So, if you have a woman doing porn and that’s her thing relax, breathe, exhale and know that she wants you !! If any thing you should be re-assured cause of all those she could have chosen you are “the one”. If the average chick had porn star choices would she choose you..??

And your porn star woman most likely needs you for your emotional support more than any thing else. If you can just be that man to give the emotional support she needs and words of encouragement you are “king”.

Now go download my new Video clips . . .

I have to give the fans what they want and they wanted pizza so here I am enjoying pizza. Will I eat a whole medium pizza by myself ..? You’ll have to watch to find out.

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I felt so happy a few hours ago now I feel the need to blog some deep heart felt stuff that I shouldn’t blog here. Funny how some times there’s a delay in reality. So, now I have to remember where my heart felt blog is. LMAO yep I keep a secret blog and I haven’t posted in it in so o o o o long !!

I just got some things I need to get off my chest, my neck and my back. And it seems that everyone who reads my blog isn’t so understanding of the terms rambling or the feeling angry !!I don’t like not being able to express myself freely in my own damn blog.

I mean what the hell it’s all a matter of interpretation anyway.

But I got to say this papa bear your words are so helpful maybe you’ll never fully understand how much you help me.  You are right people treat you differently when they want you. It’s so good to be truly wanted and it really sucks when you’re not.

Well, It’s 400 am on a Saturday morning and my plan is to make a lot of calls today. So far that schedule seems off cause I should be sleeping. O where has my sleep gone…? I was almost on a normal schedule again. O ain’t life just grand !! God I miss my father.

Btw, I’m sure you want to know what I’ve been doing. So, click below for  the latest clips 4 sale.

Booty Clap Video DVD Quality AVI Format Clip 4 Sale

This Tuesday has been cool and I’ve been happy despite having two bad dreams last night. I woke up really upset and confused. I seriously woke up from the first bad dream and it took me an hour to get back to sleep and then I had another bad dream. Wow, and not only another bad dream but with the same person.
Not only with the same person but also with my fathers no good family. Cousins I don’t talk to any more and for damn good reason. Both of the dreams were just fear of history repeating it self which I doubt since I don’t deal with those Mississippi relatives anymore.As a matter of fact I looked out my window a few mins after awaking and saw someone driving away in a car with Mississippi plates and was quite annoyed. I was like of all the times why now..? Strange thing is I think the car has been there for a long time but I just never noticed the plates until these dreams. That’s how things seem to work some times. We need eye openers to see what we over look.

After sitting in silence and reflecting on my dreams and dealing with the emotions attached I came down here and got started with these clips on my camcorder again. I am so frustrated with this thing I guess that’s why it’s kinda been sitting in the corner. I will never buy anything from sears on 79th street again. I have two more dvds to go through and pick out what stays and what goes.

First clip I uploaded that came from my camcorder is below. Added to my clips 4 sale store to keep you guys aware of my presence until my site re-opens. The Quality is absolutely great !!!

This is a clip from my Booty clap and solo masturbation video. I shake my big black ass and make it clap hard and loud you get a good sneak peak at the brown eye. Then I turn over and show you my big sexy fat black and beautiful breast, stomach, and pussy before rubbing my clit to a nice sweet and wet climax.