Wearing nothing but a sweater and shirt !!
Staring at this computer screen has given me eye strain, headaches and left me feeling light headed at times.
sheesh…which is most likely why i’ve been blogging in my head since about 8 pm.
With all the rubbish floating around in my head set ablaze by my emotional love affair
(if there even is such a thing) I decided to stop blogging on myspace for a month. Since alot of
my myspace blog post are emotion saturated.
At first I didn’t think I could do it. I thought it was a silly idea and it was pointless but in doing this
I’ve found out somethings I otherwise wouldn’t have.
Blogging is not as easy as you think and certainly not when you have multiple blogs.
There is always the struggle to keep it real and be original.
I’ve gotten request to do videos and O I love getting request. Don’t stop telling me
what you want and how you want it. But of course you know that absolutely does not mean
I’ll do whatever you what. I’ll do whatever I want and the fact that it pleases you is well, a bonus.
You wanna see me getting fucked, sucking dick and all that jazz. I hear ya loud and clear.
And I’ll say this again. I’m not about to just grab anyone and fuck them for your satisfaction.
Who I choose to fuck is entirely my choice and well I do have my standards. I’ve stated that I’m seeking someone
to fuck on camera “LONG TERM”. That pretty much cancels out a bunch of people who have the wonderful talent of short-sighted-ness. Such a fucking disappointment. So, it’s not that I’m ignoring you, or bullshitting you.
It’s the lack of someone who fits with me and is down with this sincerely.
So other than that biz…I haven’t talked to my sister since May 28 !! Hooray !! Soooo, sick of her truly.
She’s on the list of people that are nearly impossible to deal with cause they spew enormous venom into your
seemingly happy life.
I’m trying my damnest to avoid stress. Stress, ulcers, high blood pressure and other unmentionables just don’t
mix. I can see clearly why so many people just let their websites go. You need a support system among other things.
It’s emotionally draining, at times overpowering. Its the struggle to make this work. I mean all of this and your life including your love life.
I called a friend today one of the friends that was their to support me when I first started this online thing.
He isn’t easy to deal with but he’s one of the sweetest guys I know. He makes me feel so strange at times though.
I mean strange in a way I can’t really put into words. I don’t really know what these feelings are or where they
come from.
O and just in case you are wondering, No I’m not hot at all. I feels just fine !! As a matter of fact I’m
wearing a sweater and a shirt and not burning ac or running a fan.
The L word
One of the most powerful “L” words ever when said at the wrong time can spark a heated argument or ignite a hot moment of passion. I’m talking about Lust. We so often ask for love omitting the fact that lust keeps the spark in the relationship.
In the beginning, the lust has to be there with time and growth the love will follow. I’m talking about lust because I’m such a lust/passion addict and I know that you are too.
Love I need but lust I can’t live without. So tell me, do you lust me..?
Change
This has been a year of change for me and I know that most of the change was long overdue. One change still in process that you may have noticed is the closing of www.alotasxpressions.com and there are no plans to re-open it ever.
The site will be closed in two months. Thank all of you who joined and supported the site. The topsite formerly www.friends.alotasexpressions.com has been moved to www.friends.lovelyd.com. Which means that you need to update your link codes to reflect the new URL.
Another change was the closing of my website. I closed the website because I had to change hosting companies and I didn’t intend to have it closed so long. However, things do happen as we all know. The closing of my site has given me the time I’ve needed to take care of other things in my life.
Also, over the past two or three months I’ve also been trying to make a decision about whether or not I want to continue the free website promotion I’m running for Lovely D Entertainment. I know that it’s truly an excellent marketing and networking opp. for the right people.
There have also been other changes. So, basically I’m fighting to make all these changes sync in harmony and flow in the same direction peacefully !. That’s easier said then done.
Other than all that. It’s the middle of the year, June and if you haven’t been paying attention to Chicago weather well let me tell you. IT SUCKS. It’s like not quite cold not quite hot either. It’s killing my mood, seriously !!