Staring at this computer screen has given me eye strain, headaches and left me feeling light headed at times.
sheesh…which is most likely why i’ve been blogging in my head since about 8 pm.

With all the rubbish floating around in my head set ablaze by my emotional love affair
(if there even is such a thing) I decided to stop blogging on myspace for a month. Since alot of
my myspace blog post are emotion saturated.

At first I didn’t think I could do it. I thought it was a silly idea and it was pointless but in doing this
I’ve found out somethings I otherwise wouldn’t have.

Blogging is not as easy as you think and certainly not when you have multiple blogs.
There is always the struggle to keep it real and be original.

I’ve gotten request to do videos and O I love getting request. Don’t stop telling me
what you want and how you want it. But of course you know that absolutely does not mean
I’ll do whatever you what. I’ll do whatever I want and the fact that it pleases you is well, a bonus.

You wanna see me getting fucked, sucking dick and all that jazz. I hear ya loud and clear.
And I’ll say this again. I’m not about to just grab anyone and fuck them for your satisfaction.

Who I choose to fuck is entirely my choice and well I do have my standards. I’ve stated that I’m seeking someone
to fuck on camera “LONG TERM”. That pretty much cancels out a bunch of people who have the wonderful talent of short-sighted-ness. Such a fucking disappointment. So, it’s not that I’m ignoring you, or bullshitting you.
It’s the lack of someone who fits with me and is down with this sincerely.

So other than that biz…I haven’t talked to my sister since May 28 !! Hooray !! Soooo, sick of her truly.
She’s on the list of people that are nearly impossible to deal with cause they spew enormous venom into your
seemingly happy life.

I’m trying my damnest to avoid stress. Stress, ulcers, high blood pressure and other unmentionables just don’t
mix. I can see clearly why so many people just let their websites go. You need a support system among other things.
It’s emotionally draining, at times overpowering. Its the struggle to make this work. I mean all of this and your life including your love life.

I called a friend today one of the friends that was their to support me when I first started this online thing.
He isn’t easy to deal with but he’s one of the sweetest guys I know. He makes me feel so strange at times though.
I mean strange in a way I can’t really put into words. I don’t really know what these feelings are or where they
come from.

O and just in case you are wondering, No I’m not hot at all. I feels just fine !! As a matter of fact I’m
wearing a sweater and a shirt and not burning ac or running a fan.

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