I was holding out on myself and I have no idea why. So tonight I decided to just do it and get it over with. That’s bad, really bad !! I decided to take a walk tonight go to the beach, breath, listen to the waves watch the tide come in and go back out. It’s a beautiful thing. Helps me relieve stress clear my head and watch the negative energy drift away with the tide.

Negative energy ..?  Yep, we all get it one way or another. Those haters at work, the chick clinging to “your” man so forth and so on. So I went to release it and my goodness that felt so good. Got me relaxed enough to masturbate and I really needed that one. I took a moment to look at my entire body head to toe especially my stomach. I’ve been spending more time looking at my stomach for the past three months.

Idk…when I look at myself while standing butt naked in the mirror I get alot of questions but I mainly think about my body and my health. I think about what I need to do and what I want to do physically and sexually. Today was a little different. I got in the mirror and looked and looked a my big beautiful black pussy. I opened her up to watch her contract and expand. Trying to see if she’s back to normal size since the last “big black dick invasion” lol.

Now of course that led me to think more about getting big black dick. It’s so unfair that women usually fantasize about someone they have had sex with rather than a complete stranger as men do. So, I thought of the big black dicks I’ve had and my masturbation began.

Masturbating infront of the mirror can change your whole masturbation experience. Delightful. Absolutely positively. I am so big black dick addicted it’s ridiculous. Ok, maybe that is not entirely true because if it were any big black dick would do. Any who, tested and tried good sex makes very good masturbation !!

Shit give me a big black dick and a coke I’m a happy heifer. I just wish it was an easier way to tell if a dude has a big one. Why couldn’t all the big dick dudes be left handed or something like that. I mean you can’t walk up to a dude and say um do you have a big one..? We’ll you could but if he has a little one he’d be offended.

I don’t know how some females don’t appreciate a big one seriously. What is there not to appreciate..? How could you get tired of it..?

Well more for me.

Saturday morning, so what’s better than breakfast in bed, cuddling, a hot shower and then more sex cause you didn’t get enough last night..? NOTHING !! I got to keep it real. I love sex ! Fuck it plain and simple. I don’t think I say this enough … If the dick is “Good”. I mean really good hell yeah I want it every day, any time and any place.

Does that make me a freak.? Maybe

Do I think being a freak is a bad thing.? Hell No !

So I’m a freak and if the dick is good you damn right it’s going down when I want some. I’ve changed so much over the past three years. I’ve reached a certain level of I don’t give a fuck-ness that has guys dazed and females offended.

The only thing I can say is life is too short for bull-shit and crying over spilled milk. I’m gonna be real for a second I’m not down with o.p.p and I’m second to none but if good dick is what I want and he’s laying it right seriously chick “you” don’t exist in my mind.

And know that when I say this I’m speaking as a dominate, goddess only concerned with my personal needs, wants and desires and I think we all have those moments some of us more than others.

The thing is sex is sex and I’ll glady send “your man” back your way when I’m done. LMAO !! If that’s what it is then that’s what it is. Wow, blogging this feels so much better. I know some of you guys are getting all excited like wow good for me.

Trust that the brother who gets this option is only good for sex and can do nothing else for me. And I have absolutely no desire to keep him in any capacity. You know what they say one womans trash is another womans treasure.

Ah, a sigh of relief…

Also, I got the new HIV test that uses saliva and only takes 20 mins. Yes, Negative again. Wrap it up people, wrap it up and if your partner don’t wrap it up with you he most likely don’t wrap it up period !!

I love sex but I love it more with safe partners !

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