You’ve been asking me why I haven’t updated my blog well here I am.  As always I’ve got tons of website work to do but the good news is it’s supposed to each much easier to maintain multiple sites.
I’ve cut back on that chit chatting in the online adult bbw circle as I stated I would some months back. And you wouldn’t believe how much this has changed my stress level. Yes, baby !! I’ve also had to block a bunch of folks from my facebook, myspace, twitter and youtube !! There grown folks are a mess honey. A pure mess. It’s never been easy being me but I wouldn’t trade for all of the world.

Anyway, I’m about to jump in the shower.

It’s been a fairly good Saturday. I took my Saturday morning walk which is what I call it and I can’t wait for those ribs tips and chicken to come out the oven. YUM ! My bedding is all washed up and I’m gonna eat, watch tv, roll around in bed and think of sweet nothings. Sweet nothings hmmm where are you sweet nothings…? Who the hell needs a sweet nothing anyway.

I should be ashamed of myself though for not taking dudes number today to at the very least hear what the man had to say.  You wouldn’t know it from reading my tweets, blog or watching my youtube videos but I am open to the possibility of a relationship. But got darn can you have a better line then hey, sexy you got a man..?

Damn, if that’s how we start you ain’t giving me nothing to look forward to. I need a mental challenge or at least make me think I’m getting one. That is what I like about Mr. Hot Commodity but he’s 40ish so that is to be expected.  Oh if you’re not reading my myspace blog then you most likely missed the picture I posted of Mr. Hot Commodity but don’t worry I’ll have more pics of him in the members section. It’s a shame there won’t be another photoshoot though *sigh* I enjoyed rubbing baby oil all over him.

Now I’m gonna be looking out for the next sexy mutha to oil down and lust after then send on their merry little way with a woody. I bet you wanna know why I didn’t give him any don’t cha..? I won’t dare say I’ve never fucked on the first day that would be an out right lie. I am guilty of getting my groove on too soon.

Bath time with SSBBW Alota

So far I’m still headed towards my goals behind schedule which is the story of my life but still moving towards what I want to achieve. This whole years has gone by so fast just as the year before and the year before that. I’m beginning to think that after 21 all the years start flying. I can’t honestly say that I’m more afraid of what this year is gonna bring than I’ve been for previous years. Life is forever changing and does not seek approval from any of us so we are at it’s mercy whether we admit it or not. I’ve had some lame thoughts run through my head about love, and relationships, blah, blah, blah and all that incomprehensible love failure. Who am I to fantasize about being in love or not being in love.? Thank goodness I have my dreams to hide in and escape the daily ramblings of my heart those two are divorced by the way. LOL OK, I’m sleepy and didn’t want to go to bed without posting.

That the midwest could use a little Hawaii heat during these winter months.

Men are so easy it was icing on the cake. I sat there in one of the recliners reading a book and watching him unload the truck. Each time he came in he looked over at me and we made flirtatious small talk. I a made a Tyson Beckford comment only because he’s viewed as more attractive than Tyrese and he looked shocked. LOL

I guess he must have been like damn is this young chick coming on to me..? His reaction let me know it was a done deal and I could do whatever I wanted with him. So then I was just hanging around waiting for the moment but pretending to care what was on the truck.  Truth was I had already made up my mind that I wasn’t getting anything from that store and I was only hanging around for him.

When he got a moment he called me over to the bathroom and told me to come in with him. I didn’t go in I stood outside the bathroom door and watched him raise his shirt to show me his chest and back. So of course I told him I couldn’t wait to rub baby oil all over him and once again he looked surprised.

Saying things that shock you turns me on just as much as seeing your erect penis under your pants.

I asked him if he was religious, or married because I wanted him to do something that may conflict with both of those. He said he wasn’t married and he was religous but not like that ya know.  So, I asked him would he pose for me in boxers, briefs and maybe naked and he said yes. Then I gave him my number.

A photo that needs little explanation.

My mind is always working overtime and full-time and once again I’m currently negotiating another nice lil entertainment website deal. I’m really excited about it because if all goes well this shit is gonna be Hot showcasing some of Chicago’s Hottest Adult Entertainment. And for the curious I’m not talking about BBWs either.

I’ve thought about all the things that could possibly go wrong and stop this deal from happening the most important factor is the Green, money, cash, dough, bread. Most people are so fucking cheap they cheat themselves out of success. I talk about it all the time. People are willing to spend their money on hair, nails, and bling but not business. I mean driving around in a 50,000.00 car with a 600.00 bank account, excuse me..?? That’s just nonsense.

So, that’s how the cookie crumbles no developer/ graphic designer or webmaster is going to work for free and hosting is not free nor is bandwidth. Anywho, I’ll save the webmaster business talk for my webmaster blog Lovely D Entertainment Entrepreneur.

Other than all that JAZZ I had yet another crazy dream which ended with him being beaten nearly to death by a giant man. That woke me straight up !! I was wide awake and cleaning up to calm my nerves. When I say giant man I do mean giant he was about two stories tall. LOL

As you all can see from my blogs loving a brother just ain’t for me cause I don’t know how to love half way. And a quote from one of my favorite movies “Beloved” Oprah says “thin love ain’t no love at all”.

On another note, I did hit up the club and I met a nice, nice, I mean fine as brother. Lawd, this brother is so fine and educated that he has me intimidated. It’s a good thing I wasn’t drunk when I was talking to him cause he would have lost me. I want to describe him in detail but I’ll just say I love his bow legs.

This brother invited me to church when we met in the club. You gotta love that. I’ll admit when I first looked at him I was like nope too cute but when he started talking I was sucked in. There is nothing sexier than a man that understands who he is, where he comes from and what he needs to do in order to be successful in this “America”. Now I won’t get all deep in on that stuff but maybe, just maybe I’ll get my trip to the mother land after all.