Hump Day Happenings

Ah…just as I started to blog this the phone rang. So now I’m sitting here with the phone on my shoulder and it’s dude !! Damn, dude that I haven’t given a name yet….ummm. Ok, “The chocolate athlete” is talking this shit in my ear about sex. I don’t know I just haven’t had the desire to do anyone new. He’s cool and all chocolate, tall, young but my heart is telling me to back track and stick with what I’ve already had. Being the slut has never been my thing. Yeah I can get slutty for my guy and my fans but getting slutty just for the fuck of it ain’t something I sincerely enjoy !! So, I just told him that I’d love to get to know him better which is the truth. And now on with my blog.

I was sick yesterday and I’m feeling much better today. Thank goodness I think it was just something I ate. I don’t know what’s wrong with people. As soon as you say you sick every one starts looking at you saying omg your pregnant. LMAO, me pregnant..? No, no, no. Considering the fact that I’ve only been pregnant once in my life and I’ve been fucking like crazy most of it I’d say pregnancy is one of those things I don’t have to worry about accidently happening.

I hope you all listened to the show Sunday… but if not you know you can listen to it here of course. The Sunday show always makes my week a little better.

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Now, some things have been on my mind and I think I do need to say this. I understand that there are a lot of haters on the net, jealous females and shit starters and as a “man” you need to be able to recognize whats going on. And I’m gonna youtube some of this also. I don’t let a lot of females get close to me because I know how they are so dudes…keep in mind that if I “feel” you getting too close to those females that love to hate and act jealous we are going to have problems. When chicks start making comments to me about what you said to them then that shit has gone too far. And I’m not one of these scary bitches that hide behind the computer……..let that marinate for min. Fella’s keep yo hoes in check !!

Well, fans and friends because I don’t say it enough….”I LOVE YOU”.

You make my heart smile…

Can you handle it..?

In light of all things going on around me with relationships and sex I have to put this one out there. How many men really think about the down side to dating a bi-sexual chick ? Sure you think that you might end up in your fantasy having sex with multiple ladies at once. But there is also the possibility that none of those fantasies will ever happen.

So what could happen that might harm you for life..?  Your girl could leave you for another woman. Will that cause you to question your man hood..? Will you spend the rest of your life sleeping with every willing woman trying to prove that you are man enough..?

It’s something to think about that’s for sure. I mean if you are already unsure of yourself and insecure don’t attempt to compete with a woman as a man you can never win. It’s a losing battle that could haunt you for the rest of your life.

Imagine always trying to measure up to a woman. I can’t think that any man no matter what he says will handle that situation well. But I know that it will be an issue because men are so competitive. They seem to make competitions even when their are none. Personally, competitive men are a big turn off for me. Every thing is not a competition.

If there’s a competition going on I’ll be on the side lines cheering for my favorite. I don’t compete but you competitive men need to make sure you can handle the competition you’ve chosen. Think about losing your woman to another woman for a min. Tell me can you handle it..?

It’s a beautiful morning..

In this moment I’m in the very best frame of mine. I feel so great, so blessed and so thankful. My belly is full, my mind is at ease, and I am satisfied. I woke up this morning still feeling thankful for the events of yesterday. I decided to enjoy these moments in time. I made myself breakfast and sat at my dining room table. I looked across my table at the empty chair and I didn’t long for anyone to be sitting there. I looked around at the other empty chairs and thought I need to get some chair covers. I ate my grits, my scrambled eggs, my toast, my bacon and sipped hot green tea with honey in peace wanting no one and missing nothing. For a moment, I thought about the emotions I allowed myself to feel over the past three weeks or so. I chuckled at the thought of it all yet I am thankful even for those moments which have allowed me to enjoy these moments even more.

I gazed out the window watching the trees sway in the wind seemed as if they were dancing for me and me alone.  I thought of how beautiful and great they are and I felt thankful for them as well. I sipped on my tea thinking of the honey and honey bees so simple, so great, so beautiful. This feeling came over me and I thought this moment right here is happiness. I remembered my father sitting on the porch always appearing content, relaxed and never wanting nor longing. I’ve learned so much from him and yet there are times I allow myself to forget. There are times when I’m swept away by my temporary emotions.

I heard music playing out side so I went to the window. Chocolate cutie was walking past and my first thought was to turn away but I decided to just enjoy watching him walk one last time. Another simple thing which means nothing to most which can still be appreciated and enjoyed. I looked across the street and saw the guy that asked if I would make him breakfast and walked back to my chair. As I looked into the living room I thought about how beautiful it is to love someone.

Love gives you the light to illuminate the lives of those you love. I thought of my recent acts in my attempt to show love and how beautiful it is. I thought of how beautiful it is to allow the love inside you to work through you yet for them. I thought of how beautiful it is to want to prepare breakfast for some one you love, to iron their clothes wanting them to look their best and to think of them wishing and hoping they’re having the very best day possible. It’s these small gestures of love which are often over looked by those that don’t recognize love.

I understand and I am even thankful for those in my life whom do not understand gestures of love because with them the art of love is practiced and perfected. We are all born with love inside us but we must be taught how to use it and even that is beautiful. Looking back over my life I recall choosing to love those with the greatest need for my love. I chose those feeling loss, alone and rejected just like black cats. I can’t explain why and I don’t know why. All I know is that it feels so good to love some one other than myself and I’m thankful for that too.

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Days like this are few and far between. Don’t try to analyze it just be happy for me and with me.
The song playing in my head today …..