(Deep Exhale) Malcolm little. You wanna know what’s going on with Malcolm Little. I can’ t tell you that. You want to know what’s going on with me and Malcolm Little well . .I won’t tell you that either. You want to know how I feel about it, what I’ve observed and what I think.

Ah, let’s begin !! To paint the complete picture I would have to go back two years to 2006 but let’s not please.

I feel: Emotionally Exhausted. Because although we end old relationships new relationships can cause old pain to re-surface. I feel like I’ve done a lot to make our friendship solid and It’s ridiculous for me to be held accountable for what I don’t know about some one.

I feel:Posting this blog is putting myself out there for all to see thus humiliating myself and proving I’m sincere.

I feel like Kanye. Give a black woman a chance damn, man ! Can a black woman have a chance.

I’ve observed: Some thing that was flourishing start to crumble, peel and crack.

I’ve observed: Two young and intelligent people be naive.

What I think: Lmao, I got to put this in a nice way. I think this shit sucks big time of course. I was looking fore ward to this growing, getting to know him, and revealing my true self to him. Because, I “know” he’s worthy. I think it’s extremely unfortunate that we have started to back away from each other before taking the time to get to know each other.

I think I should start a business teaching men how to get back with their ex’s cause apparently I’m good at it. So far I seem to have done it twice for the same person. I’m making a joke of it but you know that shit has got to burn, bite, sting !!

If I were paranoid and sensitive I would see this as a personal attack, a plot to take me down baby !! LMFAO . .I mean the way this shit is happening is Hollywood scripted. Seriously Twice . .twice !??!! Are you serious..!!??? Do you hate me!!?? WTF . .geez whew, I apologize for whatever I did in a past life, damn.

I also think that some times we say we want things but when we have a chance to have them we sobotage ourselves.

What I think:I just put all this out there and it’s therapeutic hopefully it’s received as such.

::Something I have to repeat ::

I’m a woman just like every other woman. I have the same feelings, the same thoughts, the same worries,  similar insecurities and you damn right I want a man. But not because I need a man. Because I deserve a good man because I’m a damn good woman.  Ah, or maybe I’m just too good to be true !!

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